Let it go already...

I have a problem that keeps getting worse and worse.  I feel like i'm spinning out of control with it.  Control is the problem I think.  I like to be in control of my life, and my surroundings.  Who doesn't though right?  Anyways When I'm not in control I just lose it.  I hate feeling like this.  Matt and I got into an argument a couple of weeks ago.  I won't go into details about what we were fighting about.  I had a right to feel the way I did, but still I just overreacted.  I couldn't talk to him, because I didn't want to say something that I would regret later.  A few hrs. went by, and it was about an hr. before Matt had to go to work that I said I couldn't just ignore it anymore.  Matt just responded back saying what does it matter whatever I say is just going to make you mad, so what's the point.  That really got to me.  He said some things that were true like I just was afraid to admit that I have and emotional problem.  And all I ever did was yell at the kids,and him.  He said that I take everything so seriously.  Then I started to cry because the truth hurts.  I do do all of these things.  Why can't I let things go? Why can't I just relax?  How do I stop being a perfectionist?  How do I clear my head?  I do feel better after I have exercised, but then I fall right back into it.  I can't exercise all day long.  Please help!  I need all the advice I can get.

Lucky

I have been building up St. Patrick's Day up for McKenzie and Madisynn.  Telling them that Lucky the Leprechaun was going to come and visit them.  I said maybe we can catch him this year, and hopefully he doesn't make too much of a mess.  The girls instantly started saying maybe he will mess up our play room again, and turn our water green, and on and on.  Anyways our St. Patrick's Day was a day of fun!  I'm so grateful for the ideas that I heard about from other families a few years ago to make it even more fun.  I really need to be more on top of things and have it ready to go instead of at the last second.  We made our Leprechaun trap the night before, i know cutting it close.

The Trap which we will use again:

 

This year we set up the trap in the girl's bedroom instead of the playroom.  They were so excited, it was like it was Christmas Eve.  We didn't think they would fall asleep, they were wired.  Luck was with us though, they fell asleep pretty fast.  We took advantage of the opportunity and went around the house making it look like a Leprechaun had been here making mischief of all sorts.  We knocked the kitchen chairs over, took off couch cushions, knocked over couch chairs downstairs, had my hand weights all over the floor, knocked over furniture in their play room, messed up the toys, left doors open, turned the girls outfits inside out, made mess of their bedroom, knocked the trap over, took the gold necklace from the trap, and left a big box of Lucky Charms by the bedroom door.  Then Matt decides to get a glass of water dye it green, and leave a note from lucky saying thank you for the gold!  It was perfect!
The girls woke up at the first sound of noise in the morning.  We just lay in bed smiling knowing what was going to happen.  Sure enough the light came on their room, and they were totally surprised to see what had happened.  They were so excited to get a box of lucky charms, and they came running into our bedroom calling Mom and Dad look what Lucky left us.  Then they started going around the house to see if he was anywhere in sight, and to see if he messed up the house.  Their was no disappointment they were happy to see the mess, and the note from lucky!
They got ready for school wearing their new leprechauns day shirts.  I pulled their hair up, and Matt put green and white ribbon around their ponytails.  Then we had breakfast Lucky Charms of course with green milk.  Matt put green food coloring in the milk while they were getting ready.  They were so surprised.  I made the miracle whip green on the sandwiches for lunch.  For dinner we had Green pancakes.  It was awesome! The things we do for our kids, it's so worth it to see how excited they get!  Yes Lucky got away yet again, and we told the girls there is always next year!

Lucky Charms:

I'm not Irish..... Kiss me anyways!:

 
I had to post these drawings that kenzie drew for Lucky.  They are of sponge bob, rainbows, pots of gold.  I thought she did a pretty good job!: