I have a problem that keeps getting worse and worse. I feel like i'm spinning out of control with it. Control is the problem I think. I like to be in control of my life, and my surroundings. Who doesn't though right? Anyways When I'm not in control I just lose it. I hate feeling like this. Matt and I got into an argument a couple of weeks ago. I won't go into details about what we were fighting about. I had a right to feel the way I did, but still I just overreacted. I couldn't talk to him, because I didn't want to say something that I would regret later. A few hrs. went by, and it was about an hr. before Matt had to go to work that I said I couldn't just ignore it anymore. Matt just responded back saying what does it matter whatever I say is just going to make you mad, so what's the point. That really got to me. He said some things that were true like I just was afraid to admit that I have and emotional problem. And all I ever did was yell at the kids,and him. He said that I take everything so seriously. Then I started to cry because the truth hurts. I do do all of these things. Why can't I let things go? Why can't I just relax? How do I stop being a perfectionist? How do I clear my head? I do feel better after I have exercised, but then I fall right back into it. I can't exercise all day long. Please help! I need all the advice I can get.
Monday, March 28, 2011
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my only advice is meds. they are my life saver's. And therapy could help. sorry I have been there believe me, and we all struggle with different things, but your not the only one even if you feel like you are. Just talking to someone might help a lot. make Matt go with you then he'll learn how to understand u better and why you are the way you r and he'll also learn how he can be there for you. good luck it's not fun feeling out of control
Karen, Karen, Karen, I think you need to stop focusing on the negative. So what if you are a perfectionist...there are so many other wonderful qualities you can focus on while you work on letting things roll off your shoulder. For example, you may feel like you yell at your kids a lot, but did you forget that you play the part of Scruffy the dog very well? You do. So after you yell at your kids, say you're sorry and play scruffy with them:) You are a wonderful wife and mother!!!!
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