Getting to know you

Wednesday June 27, 2012 was our Relief Society enrichment getting to know you night for our new ward.  Members of the Relief Society had brought small paper sacks around to each sister in the ward.  We were supposed to fill the bag with things that represented us.  I really wanted to go, but was hesitant because Matt had to go to work early that night.  The activity started at 7 p.m.  I decided that I was going to go for the first part, have Matt text me when he was leaving.  I was going to let the girls be home alone for 15 min.  He would lock the door, the girls would watch netflix movie, and were given strict orders to not open the door for any one unless it was Grandma Kotter.
At the activity I was able to talk more with Rachael Larson the other girl that was meeting with the bishop.  She sat down by me.  She asked me if I got a calling. I asked her the same.  She got called into Nursery.  She was really concerned that she wouldn't get to know any one.  I told that we wouldn't let that happen.  The night started out with fruits and other things to dip in chocolate so we could eat and visit.  Then one of the ladies, the primary president had to leave.  The presidency wanted her to share what was in her bag.  I checked my phone to see if Matt had text me.  He had.  I didn't realize that he had.  He text me about 5 min. before I checked the message.

I was going to see if I could go next, but then the ladies that were at the same table as the primary president kept standing up and telling what was in their bag.  I didn't want to just get up and leave, that terrifies me.  So after a lady got done I quickly hurried and told the woman at my table that I had to do go.  Debbie Martin was at my table, and she is not shy.  She immediately blurts out that I had to leave, and if I could share my bag.  So thanks to Debbie I was able to share.  In my bag I had brought 3 items.  I brought a Jillian Michaeal's workout DVD, a hat, and a recess peanut butter cup.  The workout DVD was to represent that I was a workout DVD junkie, and that I loved to work out, that I had lost a whole bunch of weight and wanted to keep it off. The hat represented that I liked to wear cute hats, especially to my crossing since most of the year that I was crossing was bad weather.  So I never did my hair.  The Recess Peanut butter cups was to represent that I loved chocolate and peanut butter a whole lot.

I was so scared to speak in front of these ladies.  I hate getting up in front of people, and having the attention on me.  I was shaking so bad, my heart was pounding.  I really need to quit worrying about what people will think about me.  As I started to speak, I guess I was speaking too quietly.  Someone told me that I needed to speak louder.  That made me even more nervous.  As I was talking people made comments that were nice, and it helped me feel calmer.  I'm glad that I was able to share my stuff, and then leave.  I didn't really calm down until I got home.  My kids did fine by themselves.  Hooray!  It's a start.  I have very obedient kids, and 1 who is super responsible.  I'm so glad.