M&M's & Marshmellows

Whenever I see M&M's and Marshmellows it makes me extremely happy, because they make me think of my Dad. My Dad loved his M&M's and Marshmellows, he always had a stash. It was nice for us when we wanted a little treat!!! One year for Christmas I decided to get him an M&M dispenser. My Dad was a really hard person to buy for. I knew that I couldn't go wrong with M&M's. As far as I remember, I think he liked it. He kept it on his office desk at home. When we were going through his stuff, I asked my brothers and Sister if they would mind if I had it. I'm glad that they understood, it was hard enough going through his stuff as it was. The bag of Marshmellows was the bag he was eating when he died. I told my mom that I wanted to put them on his grave. I didn't feel comfortable doing it at the funeral though. I wanted to do it when I was alone. My brother says that it sounds like an offering for the afterlife. I want to do it because I think my Dad would get a kick out of it, and it would definately make me feel closer to him. Man I'm tearing up. Oh I miss him so much.... Anyways since I didn't get a chance to do it at the funeral or memorial day because we weren't in Utah I did my own special thing to remember him. I got a bunch of Helium filled yellow balloons, and attatched a little plastic baggy of marshmellows to it, and released it on Memorial day. It felt good to do. McKenzie loved doing it. She still brings it up once in awhile that she helped papa by giving him balloons with marshmellows. I plan on putting the marshmellows and m&m's on his grave on the 31st of this month. I can't believe that on the 31st it will have been a year since my Dad died. It already feels like an eternity. I can't wait for the day that I'll get to see him again.